When I took acting class in high school, they always talked about being “in the moment” – and I strive to have that kind of focus in my real life. But it seems that in today’s society, our lives have become so busy that we are never really “in the moment” anymore. We are always thinking of what we need to get done or what we didn’t get done or what we want to get done. I’ve experienced a considerable amount of that kind of thinking lately.
And yet I’ve found a kind of “in the moment” focus in this unexpected place. I’ve been on a little break from classes, and so you would think I would be thinking and doing all those other things that vie for my attention. And yet I’ve found this week that when I’m at work, I’m thinking about school. When I’m in the car, I’m thinking about my courses. While I’m at the gym, I’m yearning to get back into class. And yet, when I’m in class or working on schoolwork, everything else just falls away. I haven’t always felt that way - in my previous program I was mostly just trying to finish it.
I wasn’t sure what this was about, but when I reflected on it more, I found that this program and school experience while not easy for sure, is one of the most enjoyable and satisfying things in my life right now. Hmmmm. I wonder what that means? Somebody famous (I wish I could quote them but I don’t know who it was) said once that “if you want to truly be happy, learn something.” Well, it does seem like I’m ready to dive in again…I think this break has been long enough! Maybe I should consider just being a professional student…ha ha. Yeah, I’m not sure how long that sentiment will last…let’s talk again at the end of the next class, the next semester, the end of this program, when I finally get my degree… :-)
Until then, however, I’m happily stuck in this moment of feeling in love and harmony with learning.
—Alexx
